complainer

2010-07-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

looks like i have to switch back to this blog soon..

2010-01-08T01:24:00.005+08:00

sorry this blog is no longer in use =)
pls visit my new blog: Hongyu =D |

2010-01-04T15:33:00.001+08:00

OMGGG.. YUAN LAI IS COS YOUTUBE TERM, MUST USE A SKIN THAT CAN SEE THE VIDEO!!! MY MUSIC PLAYER IS BACK =DDDDDDDDD

2010-01-04T14:43:00.002+08:00

finally got 1 day nv go out .

lols.

if not don even have energy to blog la =.=

new year eve brought our genting clique to the church count down place.

but we left before count down. lols.

after all they all donno each other.

but the house there was omg la. =x

i wanna get a house like that =(

hm.. went to boat quay for a drink =)

but it was sooo crowded lols.

and chen hui got to see his fav cars: lambo and porche on the same day.

he must be so happy lols.

these few days was nth much ba.

bball wif mok they all, left for dead and left for dead ...

every1 is addicted to left for dead.. lols.

but cannot keep play la..

pei qi joined us for the game and mok was so stressed by her la. LOL.

and he kept repeating: " i m so thankful to her trying to save me. but the zombies caused 2 life damage and she shot me till 20 hp gone." LOL..

and we church ppl went for sze huey' s grandfather' s funeral..

omg i have never seen her looking so pale before =X

jie ai shun bian SH =)

hope her mum feels better.

ok i m begining to like bball back..

but everyones back to army camp and started work.. lols.

nvm.i shall go work after my chalet. =)

and start my blogshop =D

to lim wei chi: i better see you at class chalet or spread all the bad things about ur ss501 and tg =.=

2009-12-27T23:29:00.003+08:00

woo hoo..

went clubbing for the first time..

and i imba called too many ppl LOL.

got mok, chen hui, chenhui' s cousin, justin, kenneth, me, veron, veron' s bf, yunjie, yi ting...

o.0..

from 4 ppl become so many..LOL.

but more the merrier ma =D

and i nv saw someone dance funnier than kenneth LOL..

mok was like sianed alll the way cos he was heart broken =0

haha.

din know mok can bbe emotional o.0

anyway, we tried butter factory 1st and it was so much crowd.

the queue itself is sacry enough =.=

so we took cab to arena..

which was like quite empty.

and that may be the reason why its not very fun .

and its only when every1 was tired that yiting finally gets high =.=

and she and yun jie can anyhow go in and otu of different clubs there cos it was ladies night .zz.

we had to pay $28 lo.. zz..

and the drink was so little.

how to get high.

then got 1 guy keep wanna get number from yun jie.

and yiting they all keep pushign me to block him off.

waalao..

why disturb they 2 flirting each other. lols.

according to chicky meal,

going club is to either to touch or to get touched =.=

if not is to know more people only.

if not would would ppl go there.. lols.

but the club i went din see such things though.

but it was not as fun as i thought la.

maybe should get a bottle of vodka next time. lols.but wont be too soon..

anyway.

xmas count down was fun =D

we coutned down in my dad' s car.. LOL

cos gongyi and cheng huan went my house to wait for mok after the church celebration.

and it was almost 12 when mok was ready.. LOL.

so my dad drived us to gong yi' s house.

omg there were like more than 10 ppl in his house. squeezing at the living room.

and her mum was surprisingly supportive of having guests going overnight.

cos she even said that next time got ppl go she would prepare better place for us to sleep LOL.

they prepared card games and end up watching me and mok play dota =D LOL..

and i ling li was playing my iphone sims3 =.=

which was abandoned by me so long ago.

even my mum said its a stupid game o.0

and xmas was totally crap LOL.

we brought 8 ppl going to lan shop to play left for dead2.

chen hui and his cousin came all the way here to play that too..LOL.

and conicidently huan sheng came and join us, and i cant stop laughing at his botak hair LOL.

and more coincidently chicky meal came and laugh at huan sheng too .. omg.

and forgot to mention.

i only slept like 4 hrs before that.

and none of us felt sleepy.

and stupid me go play bball wif mok and huansheng.

and fainted on my bed when i reach home at night.

hmm...

today was totally a resting day,

went to get left for dead2 from chicky meal and wasted 1 dvd. zz.

somehow i still got the game.

and the experience he share of being drunk is so funny la. LOL.

gonna try to be drunk at least once in my life. hahaha...

and i wanna try getting air brush tatoo on my arm =D

and change design every 2 week.. lols.

2009-12-23T12:59:00.003+08:00

LOL. i think i watch too much korean drama..

gotta update about the genting trip liao =D

it was totally awesome and fun!! LOL.

mainly due to the group of ppl i went with =D

ah hui and lao da can make a super joker combo.

and we kept teasing yiting and chen hui =D

or maybe its called match making?

the golden phrase invented by lao da: marry him got lifelong supply of elegant bag leh! LOL.

and suddenly we all call him by the name elegant bag =.=

cos his family business is produce and sell elegant bag.

argh i m so lazy to describe the whole thing.. lols.

but the bus ride there and back was freaking long.

and almost everyone in the bus din sleep la..

cos the bus is impossible to sleep. =X

and we had to wait dam long to check in when we first reach there cos the check in time was 12pm and we reached at 6 o.0

then hotel room, and i randomly chose the super big room LOL.

which was like the only big room in every floor.

such an lucky person =D

my roommates gonna thank me.. lol

i think dim sum for like 2 breakfasts =.=

and all other meals were restaurant.

i myself spent like 500 bucks on food in 3 days or so.. o.0

but the 1st night the buffet wif imba!!

international buffet whereby the chief cook for u on the spot when u choose the vege.. LOL

free flow of sashimi..

but it costs like 66 rm per meal.. lol.

but its definitely worth it =0

and the 1st night was the hardest to sleep also =.=

we 4 ppl sharing 2 bed.. =.=

but the other room got 5 ppl =X

my space is just nice between yi ting and wen yuan,

and that wen yuan keep shifting towards me la. zzz

and i cannot go squeeze the other side.

end up sleeping on the

little gap between the two beds.

and thats not the most irritating thing.

his snore is like screeching sound of metal =.=

omg .. LOl..

then in the morning we will see an very common phenomenon- nobody willing to off the alarm LOL...

and lao da can continue to sleep 1 hr after everyone wakes up. imba.

and the lack of sleep made me cough out blood.

and i had to run back and rest while playing half way.

this time i learnt to be smart and spilt out the mattress like the other room =D

although i had to sleep on the hard wood, it feels much better than to squeeze =.=

then the third day we went to kbox and ordered a bottle of pure vodka o.0

cos it covers 8 ppl' s charge, so the 9th 1 paid for himself .

and that single person pax also included 2 jugs of beer .. lols.

end up i cleared 1 jug of beer and 3 cups vodka mixing wif juice.

and i din get drunk at all =.=

so disappointed la.

tot can at least feel a bit whats drunk about.. lols.

but yi ting was drunk.

definitely.

cos was she super high at the start and suddenly always rest on the sofa.

and when ppl say oh yi ting drunk liao,

she would shout: wo3 mei2 you3 he1 zui4!!!

then every1 says: ohhhh really drunk liao.. LOL..

sian la. lazy to update all la..

but its super fun except for the fact that i wasted like 100 bucks on trying to win a huge bear.

LOl.

oh ya. saw yun jie at genting =.=

and was influenced to play another game.

end up winning a very small bear and gave her as charity.

i wan my huge bearrrrrr =(

and i realised i spent like 40 bucks on overseas sms o.0

i m so gonna miss the food there.

A & W next week!!!

2009-12-22T02:22:00.003+08:00

Without a word, you made me know love

Without a word, you gave me your love.

Make me fill myself with your every breathe, then you ran away

Without a word, love left me

Without a word, love tossed me aside

Not knowing what to say

My lips must have been surprised

Because you came without a word…

you wrinkled at my sight,

thereafter stolen my eyes.

my life has no light,

except for all you have shine.

my heart screams please be mine!

my tears sang i lowered and sigh.

my brightest star let my love revive,

for you have never left my sight.

-An Dedication For Minam

2009-12-19T01:03:00.001+08:00

a hurtful feeling and 2 drops of tears.

maybe i shouldnt care so much.

it wont be appreciated.

2009-12-11T23:18:00.005+08:00

woohoo..

so lazy to update..

went jb , cll class bbq, celebrated chen hui' s bday, celebrated mok' s bday..

and gong yi is addicted to asking me to style his hair..

hes gonna come my house before the wedding at church..LOL

and i have been going his house so often cos my mum is %#$%$#%#% at home =X

i have so little time before i go genting!!!

and gonna meet wei chi before i leave,

gonna attend wedding.

gonna go bai4 shi1 for online shop. =D

needa pack, shop..

today i m so dizzy.

morning woke up suepr early to send cousin to RP for exam.

i think if i din go she would be half dead by the time she find the venue =.=

omg so much to update..

lazy lazy lazy =D

anyway, welcome our new genting pals: yiting and janet(lao da) =D

2009-12-05T21:21:00.001+08:00

I m a hum ji =X

I cant stand the heart breaking plot and buffed str8 to the happy ending .

And i realsied its so wrong to have watched it.

I really Shouldnt watch anymore romance shows..

I will believe in my faith

that is they are all unrealistic.

there no such love in this world..

2009-12-04T04:38:00.003+08:00

ommgggggggg...

You're Beautiful is such a nice show!!!!!

omg omg omg..!!!!

finally wei chi intro me something meaningful.. wahahahaha

go go fighting Mi Nam!!

ok i cant post Mi Nam photo cos shes not pretty =X

and of course, i cant forget my beloved Park Bom!! XD

2009-11-30T18:27:00.007+08:00

intended to type a 一切尽在不言中, but that sounds kinda irresponsible to my dear blog =D

kinda lazy to update all though =.=

well i must thank my assistant nannys: wei chi, gongyi, chen hui, mok, yiting =D

ig not i would be so dead.. LOL..

and i wonder why my bro can play wif them so easily =.=

so not like last time.

ok last week went to orchard wif yt.

re visited my old workplace takashimaya =D

and not a single one in the xmas fair that i noe anymore. haha..

well its been 4 years.

hope my supervisors are doing well =D

and then had to fetch my bro..

but surprisingly my dad came home early.

but well, got yt and m ok to play wif my bro while i cook..

feel honoured to taste my cooking k.

its the 2nd time i cook dish =D

but another great success ^^

thurs went to IT fair wif Yt and Yj

actually i did intend to buy destop.

but only bought a number pad which was at 50% discount

i shall ait till my mum returns.

so i don have to pay for my destop =X

then rushed home to study wif gong yi.

and was interupted by my dad wh osuddenly came home =.=

and we could not concentrate ah..

fri.. best...

going church camp!!!

or rather a chalet.. lols

ok.. the 1st day, cos the games was canceled..

was kinda disappointed =(

night walk leh!!!!

so sad..

but well, although the sharing dragged,

it was kinda meaningful.

sad to say i could not attend the talk in the day time while being a nanny.

but from their sharing i was kinda enlightened.

the last criteria i have to have before i find partner: earn my own money.

haha..since i m not a working adult yet,

why make myself emo over r/s .. =D

not time yet ...

next time still got much to trouble about.. yawn

night time was playing bluff and monopoly..

LOLLLL..

it was super fun cos i kept winning =D

i din win cos i m good at lieing ok!

i won because i was pro at catching ppl lie =D

we played till 5 and i tried really hard to sleep..

and realised i couldn't sleep in the guy' s room cos some1 was snoring so loudly. LOL..

its was totally imba snore..

like the snorelex from pokemon =.=

so i stole a pillow and slept on the sofa in games room.

the whole chalet was ours. wahahaha..

but it was only 2 hrs of sleep, which was like finally,

and i had to wake up to pick my bro from my dad' s car. =D

but kinda glad cos i din like the breakfast they prepared.

so i ate together wif my bro!!

wooo hooo..

and then the harsh time came - games time..

it was sort of like an amazing race and i had to bring my bro all day =.=

but i survived though..

super exhausting la =.=

supposed to study today and that stupid gong yi made me watch music videos for so long.

arrrrrrr...

time for fooooooddddd.

and congrates to those who have finished ur As today =D

my sunshine

hope you enjoy today

everyday

forever.....

2009-11-27T16:34:00.003+08:00

IT fair is so huge.

but i only bought a number pad..

buying a destop is too much for me to decide alone =D

gotta wait for my mum to come back 1st..

wanted to update alot.

wanted to post alot of pictures.

and i just cant bring up the mood.

i just hope every single second of my life is filled up.

occupied, busy or whatever.

don let emptiness find me.

cos thats when her face appears.

all i wish is to train my singing well.

do well in my business.

do well in my As..

i have no time for my emotions anymore.

let my passion sparkle in the pool of arts.

hahahahahahaaaa........ i suck .......

though wei jie is lousier =D

2009-11-23T15:39:00.004+08:00

bleah bleah..

my holiday starts now =D

LOL..

been to Mok' s french restaurant =.=

and its so blooody cheater . lols.

$25 bucks set meal but the appetizer like heavier than main course =.=

the main couse looks like a piece of chicken butt ... zzzzzzz

LOL.

so cheated la.

we even wanted to go eat steamboat right away.

but the the lousy gong yi full liao..

so decided to go next day.

as being a nanny,

i cant go out at day time before my dad come back

lols.

and afternoon we brought my bro to steamboat together =D

and he is so addicted to psp =.=

but he play virtual tennis more pro than gong yi.. LOLOL

diu lian sia..

then dad fetched us back to amk.

and we went for our Left4 Dead followed by Paranomial activity movie!!!!

the show experienments another foam of technique..

building up of tension and explosion of climax right at the end..wowwww

quite cool, except for the sleepy starting =.=

but its not scary afterall.

nothing can be seen,

the devil is totally invisible. lols.

except for the part the gal got pulled to far away .. wa seh..

which made gong yi don dare to go home alone LOL.

so they both came my house to stay 1 night..LOL

omg la .

he come my house watch a lousy horror show also request to on light.

LOl..

this proves i m not ren yao =D

i m a MAN !

lol..

this week gonna go lesson,

then IT fair!!

my new graphic card i m coming for you =D

好不容易端掉的线，我不想再接回去折磨自己了=D

2009-11-21T02:25:00.001+08:00

i begin to feel the weightless joy of letting go =D

2009-11-19T23:36:00.002+08:00

what a day..

mum back china,

dad go eat till 12 midnight

then my bro?

i must carry him home.

a 15 kg load on 1 hand

then 1 hand hold umbrella

walk 20 minutes.....

then go supermarket buy things

do chores

cook

wash clothes

then pei him till he fall asleep.

i m so sleepy and tired.

and i cant sleep cos he would cry if he wake up.

waiting for my dad to reach home which seem like forever....

cant study for my As .....

HOW NICE!

i m not gonna have children within 20 years..

now u tell me u wan to see ur grandson?

then who raise my bro next time?

who raise my son?

who support my family?

who support everyone?

why must i have a child for you.

its my child.

its not gonna happen.

no thnx.

i will only tc of my bro as my son next time.

as for my own.

wait long long ba..

bunch of irresponsible ppl.

only know to make accidents.

get me by accident,

get my bro by accident

and always find excuse to escape responsibility.

then abort us la.

if you did.

u would not need to come quarrel everyday and ASK ME why u all marry each other..

i have no idea leh..

SORRY..

2009-11-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

i found the root cause and i m going to end it no matter what =D

2009-11-16T18:06:00.003+08:00

sometimes i really hope i can revine time,

i always do something i would regret.

but i will make up for my rudeness.

and control my feelings.

cos the only way i can be happy,

is to see you happy.

2009-11-13T14:37:00.004+08:00

你是一颗沧海遗珠，

只不过，你的美，是我第一个来发掘。

当他们终于闻得你的甜，

你会懂，

我不是你的罗密欧。

我也是一枚土中的圃玉，

孤独而漫郁。

没有属于我的珠丽叶，

既便梳妆打扮，

也无法光芒四散。

落花人独立，微雨燕双飞，

无比翼互倾诉，无连理之相顾，

纵使有良辰美景，更与何人说？

2009-11-10T22:44:00.001+08:00

i cant believe i spent 1 hour teaching my bro sonnets and chinese poetry =X

gp gp gp gp!

2009-11-08T02:37:00.003+08:00

my didi queueing =D

" i wan my food!"

Day dream expression =P

Angry expression

evil expression

happy expression

worried expression

no expression =.=

2009-11-07T19:59:00.002+08:00

theres no time to emo.

and theres no reason to.

i should be happy for you that you don need me anymore =)

now i really need to work hard for my As..

and i wish to be your happy fruit.

and to do that,

i will stay happy =D

so.

while i study hard.

and after my exams.

i wish to watch over you until all my love vaporises into a scarlet mist..

2009-11-05T22:20:00.002+08:00

i turned my head to the left,

and my whole body turned to the right..

2009-11-04T11:38:00.002+08:00

hmm..

Is that really wat i want..

Am i really that weak minded.

Is it As that is complexing my mind?

well

after As i will find out..

now i just wanna do well for As =(

2009-11-04T01:35:00.003+08:00

yawn.......

so boring..

life is boring lols...

ok time for sleep.

tml have to study again..

haiz.

anyway before i go,

HAPPY BDAY FION KER XUN HUI =)

2009-11-03T21:37:00.003+08:00

A level is so stressful.

i realised i m totally unprepared.

and i cant study at home at all..

super sian..

lucky got gong yi and rong rong to study with me outside.

if not i will be so dead.

but today was kinda wasted.

just 1 glance and my whole heart sank . lol

i know i m useless la...

and stupid sis made me go catch bird to wake me up =.=

end up chasing the birds away from their delicious food ..

i feel so sad for them..

hope i can concentrate tml.

only time can heal.

i promise you god.

i m not gonna love anyone till i m grown up.

and concentrate on enriching my life

and serve you well =)

hope you give me the strength to remove my weakling emotions.

and concentrate on my As.

Amen

2009-11-03T21:32:00.002+08:00

O, I believe,

the shine of happiness blinks eternity.

O, I believe,

my heart is pumping for an aim.

Even my breathe no longer heard,

There' s a significance to my spirit.

Even my flowers has no owner left,

It will blossom and rainbow it pours.

Cupid' s arrows have never missed,

But the red lines may have messed.

Just a sight, my blood cot and cold,

Thousand pounds and venom folds.

Now the knot is thorning me around,

And i wish for a knife to cut it gone.

2009-11-02T22:16:00.001+08:00

how can something so wrong feel so right all along,

catch me, im falling for you,

how can time is so wrong for love to come along,

catch me , i m falling for you.

" Catch me I' m falling for you "

2009-11-01T21:04:00.002+08:00

its not working..

i cant escape from this feeling.

then wat should i do?

2009-10-31T00:41:00.002+08:00

there isnt anyone else that can have the wife quality.

it is so hard.

she is like one if the millions i met.

or maybe i should simply look for a gf quality and not care about the future.

it should not be considered as irresponsible i guess.

cos everyone is doing it.

but no matter wat..

i m not a victim.

cos i gained a good fren..

2009-10-29T22:31:00.003+08:00

nobody nobody but you.

nobody can replace

yes, always, of cos.

2009-10-28T21:37:00.002+08:00

I sing a little prayer

And wished for a little flower

In a scarlet rain the breeze has paused

With passion dropped for a lost

I sing a little prayer

Fallen leaves , freezing kisses,

Like a winter all trains have passed

But my heart is forever lost

All lost!!!

All lost....

The little treasure chest i locked,

Not a single cent it now costs.

Certain things gains value when time walks,

Certain things loses as it rusts.

2009-10-27T20:59:00.004+08:00

i know its finally settle down.

its finally stabilized..

but i cant help but keep thinking of you.

i cant help but worry about you..

i cant help i cant help!!!!

i don wan the same old thing to happen again..

i don wan!!!!!!!!!!!

i know wat the problem lies.

i need a girlfren who can replace my frens.

you need good frens that can replace a boyfren..

but i have to admit..

i don like the feeling when i cant control myself.

i don like the feeling of emptiness when i m fucking doing so many things.

when i m planning so many activities.

why isnt the time moving?

why is it that i wan nobody nobody but you...

plsss God..

let me fall for some1 else..

even if it causes me more pain.

at least we can still be frens.

at this rate ....

i don wanna end up being strangers,

a passer by on the road.

that feels like i never existed..

i noe i noe..

i will never find any1 else for her sweetness..

and i m never willing to give any1 else as much.

i noe.....

but i m never so determined..

i just wanna be frens...

pls stop my fucking feelings...

2009-10-24T20:49:00.011+08:00

wwwooooooo hooooo......

i m lazy to type.. but i can let picturs do the talking.. =D

anyway v thnx to my dear 0845A for the present hahaha..

and thnx to my angel and my buddies for all the things =D

YOU ROCK MY LIFE =D

looks like shu ling is harrasing onion

1 bite k-o

come here and watch TV??? =0

my shirts don suit him =D, but he has to wear it to play pool wif us =D

2009-10-19T00:26:00.006+08:00

it is cos of these few days that i need people the most that i realized.

no 1 has been so sweet to me before..

thank you jiaying =D

i will pay back as a forever loyal fren.

if our thread of destiny ever get tangeld together in the future,

i will forever be a loyal one too. =)

2009-10-16T22:49:00.004+08:00

i have never felt so hard to let go...

i shall only work for my career goals and see wat happens in 10 yrs..

for now, let things go as destined to be..

stop imagining hongyu.

you can do it.

2009-10-16T18:46:00.005+08:00

finally i got mood to blog! =P

wa seh..

kinda thinking there are too many things to blog.

hmm.......

my stupid belly =(

and that stupid polyclinic,

made me go emergency department..

walao eh.

inside they poke the needle cannot take out during hospitalisation.

and the food inside is really sucks.. lols.

the surgery is even more scary.

when you know you are gonna get unconscious in a few seconds,

well...........

its gonna freak you out.

but they got the heart beat thing which i can hear,

so i had to calm down, if not my heart beat will sound so fast, and so pai sei.. lols.

when they push me into the operation room its like watching drama,

seeing the ceiling moving below while lying on the moving bed being pushed in..

then the light up...

then the shadowless light system shines......

and they actually gave me an general anesthetic for that small surgery.

and made me feel so uncomfortable la.

that mac i asked wei chi to bring for me,

i could not even eat more than 5 bites before i almost puke them out.

rushed down some drink and stopped.

was solely dependent on that potassium chloride solution that goes in through that needle that sticks in my hand all the time.

then night time mok came and watch TV at the tv room for patients =.=

while i try to settle my discharge form etc..

soo lucky that i managed to go home late night before my bday =D din have to count down in hospital.. hehe..

oh forgot to mention, cosi could nt eat my lunch provided by the hospital and the mac brought by wei chi,

she actually ate them all =.=

and told me she always eat hospital food when she visit ppl.. zzzz

i will pray she go hospital often then,

but not for me ..... =.=

hmm..

yesterday my bday..

well.... i could not go anywhere further than amk.

which is sooo sad..

but i see the warming messages my frens send for me,

its kinda helpful to relieve my negative emotions.

now i have 15 days of mc and have to go for dressing of the wound everyday.

just hope my studies could cope.

and my plans for bday celebration all ruined up..hahaha.

well i got my biggest bday present ever- a deep cut on my belly =D

but at least.

this hospitalization made me fell some super super warming love and concern..

i don mind going in a few more times =P

hehe... ok la.. thats not the way.

now i just hope i can do well in my exams.

hope i can focus.

and thank you to all my frens who showed me your concern these few days and those who wished me happy bday =D

each and everyone means alot to me.

my dear friends =D

and the only You......

lets all work hard.!

we will see the light... really...

life is not just about suffering,

its about how u enjoy those sufferings =P

my mum is a photoholic too =.=

see that greedy face =D

2009-10-11T18:11:00.004+08:00

was a stupid area for infection.

belly button.

no cut no wound =.=

and its such a hindrance.

i could not go for my bball match!

hope i can recover soon pls..

i don wanna spend my bday at home..

it is always such a melting sweet voice.

even if without a sweet tone.

it melts me.

and i m going for the freezer.

alas,

i feel the drifting away.

so glad.

its fading off. =)

2009-10-11T01:06:00.003+08:00

oh man.

i m seriously down with intestine infection.

my belly button got bleed and pus .. zzz..

its bloody pain..

i sneeze also pain, cough also pain, go toilet when "push" also pain.. wth..

yesterday could have used the day wisely de.

end up cannot tahan anymore at library and had to ask ling li help me carry my bag home.

omg.

so diu lian.... lols.

i don like the feeling of being a burden...

but the doctor is super uselss.

she still tot is muscle sprain.. =.=

hmm..

today whole day at home.

cos could nt risk going out.and my mum went out without my bro.

walao.

had to babysit him.

and i could not do a shit.

but actually he nt there i also cant study la.

cos the computer is so distracting..zz.

i m gonna study tml..

i will..!

oh man.

when i sit i think of her.

when i eat i think of her.

when i wake up i think of her.

why cant i walk off gracefully just once.

disgrace.

i nv done anything amoral,

i m not into self indulgence.

but i have the same problem as David Lurie,

i don understand the heart of any lady.

i always tot i did.

and that is such a disgrace to myself.

i dont act as if i know anymore.

i will not know anything.

maybe the best way to forget her is to give my love to some1 else like ah bear said.

but isnt that starting a whole new cycle of this tortures.

i donno why.

the one i fall for always is so impossible. lols.

maybe my taste is those who don suit me.

well..

but no matter wat.

i don want us to be reduced to strangers.

no matter wat i do,

i will make sure,

we will be friends forever.

i will protect this frenship, protect you.

and convert this love to the love for a fren.

cos love for a fren need not any term and condition.

love for a fren never fades away.

never swings.

it wont bring sadness. =)

but well.

i noe.

one day, i will find my second half.

the 1 that loves me as much as i love her. =D

until then, you are still the most important person in my life.

cos you locked away my most treasurerous memories =P

now as my most important fren. =)

but i m practicing one thing.

not relying you for company like i did.

but when u need, i will be there.

i m not stating i m very noble, cos i really v free =.=

control hongyu..

control.

you can do it =D

i learnt so much in this 8 months.

and it will shape me a better guy.

hehe.. grateful leh =D

but well.

theres no turning back le...

and i do understand.

this age is really not suitable for such thing.

cos the school is to stressful.

it wont allow them to have such free time and mood for relationships.

at least i know, its none of our fault. =)

and moreover you still have one more year.

just work hard f or As everyone

our future will be bright. =)

actually i have to admit. after my long journey of searching for my wife.

i have to admit.

friends are the best!! =D

but of cos, only worth frens.

hahaha..

2009-10-09T00:40:00.007+08:00

omg..

i cant believe it.

i studied from like 11am till 8 pm =D

heng i nv go sku ah..

today sku only got like gp and econs..

2 lessons =.=

even C lit paper 1 mock exam as cancelled.

phew.

the only way i an study is to wake up after..

and its proven to be so true. =.=

thnx to ling li ah..

who suddenly wan to chiong mugging,

and shhhhed me each time i cant control my mouth and talk..

lols...

tml needa go sku already..

hope my insteine ache or muscle tear or whatever can recover soon ..

but the medicine i got will drowsy =.=

irritating.

best of luck to my J1 buddies.

chen hui, pei qi, and jiaying.

you all better promote hoh =D

tml is a better day! =)

2009-10-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

omg la..
this i phone....
its RED!!!!!!
and the camera slightly better, 3mp..
but then.
OMG!
IT HOT RED!!!!!!
walaooooo..
its like..
the colour
the texture...
its totally my dream phone!!! except that its camera is not 5 mp..
but then..
omg!!!
i fell for it the 1st sight la..
LOL....
its launghing soon but i noe it will remain my dream phone..
cos i can only afford it in my dream =.=
sighz....

2009-10-02T23:19:00.003+08:00

LOL.
that is so funny..
as random as you were..
i saw something that comfirms me that you are just a loser.
you think you two' s problem is cos of me?
and try to avoid me? .
well.. thats a amature escapist.

and now that when i m suffering and trying to work on my frenship wif her,
it becomes a reverse psychology to you . o.0
what a joke.
wat right do you have to judge me when you havent talked to me for months.
that right do you have to critisize on something i post with tears.
what right do you have to judge me when you don even know what i have been doing for her.
maybe you donno how to respect other ppl.
well i just hope you can respect yourself.
and stop being a loser.
I don need that cynical and sarastic remark.
but i know my frens will understand me and respect me.
but not a loser who does not treat frenship like the sacret thing its supposed to be.
giving it up easily when you know i fell for the gal u like.
and more importantly, i fell for her 1st.
ironic huh.

well, i can only wish you good luck.
continue disguse yourself like the only victim.
and continue to be a loser...

you know who you are.
and you know what i mean.
how silly i was to even symphatise with you.
just get lost from my life and don ever mention me.
i will be super grateful.

well.. this message could only be passed to you if u randomly come here again.

jia you and b e more random and sarastic ..
you will win an award soon.

and the name of the award is- " campion for stepping on broken hearts"

well, sorry if any1 thinks i m exaggerating anything.
the only way i can help you yo understand is when you are having depression over the lost of your love, must be serious enough to cry a few hours.
then ask some1 come and look at you and say- well, its human nature to use reverse psychology...
but pls control don slap that person....

so irritated by this shit.

my new eye candy!!! =D

2009-10-02T02:25:00.002+08:00

woohoo..
i have a new eye candy!!! that is....
陈琳 in the drama of "痞子英雄" =D
its a suepr super nice show la.. omg.
thnx to xiao ling for introing to me.. LOL..
there will definitely be blank times at this times of transition.
i noe my frens wont be able to fill all of them..
but i can find thigns to fill my own life =D
though learnign this method from wei chi seems to be regressing my age.
LOL.
but well.
sometimes its quite fun to 追星。。
at least you wont have hope and there wont be disappointments.
just like a fairy tale..
live in my imagination.
and life will be much more wonderful.. =D
we all need an escape from this brutal life.
this is quite a cool method ...
i was chooing bwteen her and hebe .. lols.
and i decided, the drama is too nice le..
sadly, she got no album to buy =(
gonna find her wallpapers =P

2009-09-29T21:41:00.001+08:00

good evening.
i m sooooo dead..
why?
cos i failed everything except my chinese..
cool huh...
yes very cool..
and i m trying very hard not to show how bad mood i am..
thats even more cool.. =D

2009-09-28T00:40:00.002+08:00

omg la..
msia is so cool la.
lol..
i promise myself i m not gonna buy anythign from sg again =D
and i changed my impression on chen hui..
see his outfit in msia if i nv wear properly i will feel so zi bei la. lol.s
and to be able to drive is so fun.
oh he let me drove a bit.. =P
and its quite easy to learn. but its feels v stress though =.=..
oh.
he wasted like 30% of his tire to drift.. lols.. quite dumb.
i till remmeber the maximum speed he drove was 135km /hr
which is like totally impossible in singapore? lols.
and almost hit into a car when he competing wif some1 who wants to overtake us lol...
but well i have to admit his skill super good.
=D
thats why i m stil safe and sound. =.=

oh i forgot.
thurs met tummy to eat and catch up.
ate at aston at doby gauht..
lols.1st time i go queue up and wait for a meal =.=
but the steak was scrumptious.. =D
watched gamer which was like a super porno show =.=
but the ending is LOL.
well but i don suggest to watch it. haha.

fri went steamboat wif wen yuan and ah hui.
lol.
that shop only got china ppl..
they felt as if being kidnapped.lols.
went to play left 4 dead a while and k pool..
i m owning them as usuall =D
mum gave mi like 400 msia dollars co the previous time she went there to tour din use finish.
hehe
msia i m coming back soon..
wait for me my super nie jacket!!!

this is probably the best way ..

and i will work on our frenship.

2009-09-26T23:53:00.004+08:00

malaysia is so cool!
i swear i m nt gonna buy anything from singpore anymore =D
cos the things i buy are all price elastic and the price in msia is so many times cheaper =D
i m not feeling v well now so i m gonna describe it only tml. =D
time to rest.

2009-09-25T22:34:00.005+08:00

Man are like this..
only when u give up something.
u realise how much u love them..
actually i know it all along..
but sometimes i have to admit to fate..
sometimes love could only bring unplesant experience.
sometimes its better to accept certain facts..
when its only creating troubles.
pressures.
sadness.

mayeb we should really reconsider
wouldnt it be better just to let go.
i tried to find other solutions.
i went to be an escapist.
but the best and most suitable answer is right in front of my eyes.
just let go.
if i dont.
how am i going to act as a normal fren.
its too tiring to disguse i don care.
to promsie i wont care..
when i cant at all.
cos i havent let go.
i should have realised the amount of pressure i m creating for you.
when i m not even anything to you, i m already producing this amount of negative things.
how would any1 accept such a me.

thats why,
i m just a loser.
but i wan to be a wise one

now i see the solution for a better frenship.
and i will seize it.
and never turn back..

and my tears will be my witness.

this is the last time i will cry for you.

lets work hard for our own future.
my good fren.

我达达的马蹄声是个美丽的错误，
我不是归人，
是个过客。
我以我最坦诚的心祝福你，
永远幸福快乐。

但是，我的生命里，永远会有一片关于你的记忆，
虽然连照片也没有一起的，
但那永远都会是一个美丽的童年回忆。
一条走错的路上遇到的并让我爱的无法自拔的陌生人。

我爱你。

-李佳颖

我终于敢用你的名字了。

god,
if you really exist,
pls stop me from crying.

2009-09-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

what do i know.

what am i doing.

what should i do.

i think i noe.

alright ....

2009-09-24T00:55:00.003+08:00

what more can i say.
jurong safra kbox is simply LOL..............
can even record ur songs and bluetooth for u !
i m trying hard to upload my recordings =D
but ahem.
had to wait 50 min for ah bear..
continue to be guilty ba =P

oh no.. tml is 24th!

i don wan ..arghh...

piggy piggy go go go

2009-09-23T01:07:00.004+08:00

i looked up in the sky,
into these maginificent eyes.
blinked like fire sparkles,
dimed like how i sigh.

i looked into my open mind,
into the innocent beautiful whine.
how i wished i could have one,
a little love just for tonight.

happy hari raya =D

2009-09-21T20:43:00.002+08:00

happy hari raya to all my muslim friends.. lols.
its quite miracle the i could make so many muslim friends,
guess its all god' s will to arrange me into this jc,
into this class where i m the only chinese! LOLs.
but wells, i survived here, and every1 has been nice to me. =D
jia you for A levels all my friends..
i love all my frends =P
cos before i got my life partner,
u and my family are everything to me.

missing you

2009-09-20T20:07:00.004+08:00

i also donno why i hated him.
not because he is a rival of mine,
but because he chose to give up a frenship over such a thing.
but when i saw his blog.
somehow i can feel the pain he suffers.
cos i feel it too.
though i m in a much better situation.
we are both at the starting point..
i feel his pain and struggles.
and surprisingly,
it hurted mi.
i felt hurt for him and symphatising him.
well.
i cannot decide for him.
but i wish i m given a chance to salvage this frenship.
cos it all started wif a misunderstanding that i tried to solve
which created more misunderstandings and escapism...
and i m not gonna doubt his love for her..
but all of us are humans.
hope god light a correct path for us.

i m closer..
but.. so close. yet so far..
everything is uncertain..
to be frank.
i don have any confidence at all..
i don even dare to use her name...

2009-09-20T19:18:00.003+08:00

hmm..
wat a week end..
left with case study and i will have a long break.
but i cannot waste it.
=)

friday was a treat.
got to watch a movie wif my piggy =P
the movie "the ugly truth" is so vulgar and perverted la.. lols.
but the plot is quite nice..
and i used the free tickets.. so it was totally FOC f or us =P
lols..

then sat..
studied a while .
met ah bear to watch "4bia2"
cos 4bia 1 was kinda nt bad..
and 4bia2 got 5 stories instead of 4..
and the funny thing is.
the last story is more funny than scary.. LOL.
omg
the twist is super funny..
u gotta watch it..
and i found something cute outside the theatre
outside the nebo cafe there got a event thing..
and out of my instinct,
bought it for my piggy..
LOL..
its totally pink and cute and the person i buy from looked at mi wif a weird expression =.=
its nt for myself ..=.=
today went church service and then home whole day..
omg
i din study much.!
fonna spend my day wisely tml..
=D

argh.
why do i feel so weird...

2009-09-17T15:27:00.004+08:00

yawnz...i feel so bored..
this whole week got 6 papers...
5 of 3hr papers and 1 2h and 15 min paper.. =.=
dam boring la..
nvm.. 1 last 1 to go and i have like 4 days to study for my econs case study??
so lame la!!
LOL..
case study leh..
need so many days..

and its on tues..
after tues?
no mroe exam and it is connected with marking days..
omg i got 6 whole days o f holiday =P
and wen yuan being so excited and ji dong just because he has 4 days o f break..LOL
should i plan to play or should i plan to study more??? hmm.
its been long since i play bball.
and i can only do 7 pull ups without kicking..
LOL ..
this is wat i call regression..
no way.
i m gonna train...

haiz..
cannot let Arif teach me how to gym since he is expelled.
sadly, he was nt accepted into serengoon jc..
so bloody lame..

when he 1st came ijc, i admit his temepr was nt very good.
but he has always been very polite.
at least to his frens..
and help his frens whenever they need help.
and i was his very first fren in ijc..
yet i cannot do anything to help him.
and wth?
cos of 1 idiot..
he wasted 2 years..
i know the matter has been few months old.
but its only recently that i returned to my blog.
and today this irritating matter came across my mind.
i cant help but linger over it cos the reason that caused his fight was so trivial.
cos of 1 bullet mouth.
filthy and disgusting...
lols.
and that, boy, ruined my fren' s life..
i hope u feel guilty.
but i wont blame you.
and i cant..
but God has eyes, he has plans for you dude.
whatever it is.
good luck.

wat a weird inspiration of sweeping aggression. =.=
nvm.
my nap now.

You, the fusillade of the storm,
driven my pal out his room.

a gap of shame he marked on You,
a stamp of indignant foul that holds.

Beware my fren, the rage has flowed,
the roof it drips, the pumper it fills.

your calpable visage i forecast,
and to him it will blast.

2009-09-14T00:22:00.002+08:00

ahhhhh.
i give up studying for econs. lols.
got so much to cover =.=

and computer is so distracting!!!!
lols.
anyway thnx to wei chi for wishing mi good luck =.=
and don worry, i wont be thinking of u when i do my test. lols..
why scare myself =X

and thnx RR for reminding mi and wishing mi gd luck also..

sian la..

tml got 2 test!!!!!!

and i wish my piggy could have a speedy reovery =(

2009-09-13T21:53:00.003+08:00

From now i shall post with text colours that reflects my mood..lols..

yesterday went to woodlans to study.
cos i heard that rong rong everyday go there study alone.. lols.
next time i cannot find ppl study wif mi noe who to find le.
can even shun bian ask her maths.. lols.
so cool....=P

but v ke xi, afternoon got to rush off for my church cell group activity.
and the activity was making moon cakes =.=
we played a super stupid game while making the mooncake..lols.
but quite fun..
can try it wif my frens next time..
then mok came my house to eat dinner.

i donno why recently always feel so tired and lazy.. lols.
could have played bball yesterday but was too lazy to go..
and i ts been long since i last thawned wif wei jian they all.
stupid A level!! lols.
and today i din go to church service..
got some headache..
but maybe part of mi is being lazy..
anyway.
i din study alot today.
its been quite inefficient.
cos i m in a shut down mode.
nono.
power saver mode!
yawn......

but hmm..
i was given a sweet sweet potion by my piggy..
=P
really really sweet..
haha..

all the time of laugh and tear,
all the sorrows that weeped my fear.
is but a passing wind,
if my heart wont let it swing.

even if, we are lines,
only being tangled up,
it is, nevertheless, a beautiful disaster,
that taints but pays..

returning my thnx =)

2009-09-10T02:43:00.005+08:00

haha.. i noe its kinda late..
but some how these few days i just don feel like sleeping early =P

and i have a sudden urge to thank all my frens.
especially my best frens in sku, wen yuan and chen hui for always supporting me..
haha..
but, anyway,
what are frens for? lols..

well.. and suepr great thnx to xiao ling. (jasmine)
for introing this song specially for mi..haha.

and i feel so much more confident after seeing the lyrics..

here it is:

范玮琪 - 你只有一个词/曲:徐洁儿

你看你眉头都打结了

你熟悉的坚韧到哪儿去了

别因时光而磨损

快找回那自信的眼神

不要因为爱错了一个人

就否决爱美好的可能

不管如何都不要忘记你是最好的

要相信你绝对有幸福的资格

你只有一个独一无二

他不懂珍惜是他太笨

有多少人等着要做你最最在乎的人

你只有一个那么独特你

值得你期盼的快乐当

你不再非他不可他会知道

失去的多难得

一定会找到珍惜你的人全世界就非要你不可

i think i skipped 1 phrase.. lols.
but the general idea is here...
din expect her to be so kind..lols.
thnx ah...

and surprisingly,
i came across a note given by my "angel"
who was assigned to be my angel for an ange land mortal game within nma exco last yr.
and i realise her messages are so dam sweet..lols.
omg..
apprantly i only gave my mortal- Huda 3 things... lols.
and one of them is a lame candy..
wat my angel gave is like 1 whole bottle of stars.
and each letter wif 1 star stick to it so i can put into the bottle.
and each letter wif soem sweets or food.
i bet i m the most fortunate mortal in the game..
i bet..haha..
well i m not supposed to noe who it is..
but i knew it anyway..
so thnx so much =P
though u wont come across my blog, lols.
i wish u all the best for ur exams.. FRR...
ur sis did it, so can you..

haha.. and last but nt lease, thnx gong yi, ling li and ah bear for the company when i bored or wan to study together.. =)

and thnx my little sis to let mi suan when i bored.

its just so busy to think of the good things..
where got time for my brain to fill the unhappy things? =)

go go fighting.....!
i can do it.

oh ya, the sonnet i wrote for national day.
though our class din win the prize for statue.
i think its only fair to save my hard work here..

Scarlet wings

Carolling on the scarlet date,
Dancing in the angelic fate.
Devotion we give to our nest,
A gift of love here to rest.

Boxes of courage now we stack,
Hand in hand our crisis would crack.
In the shelter our sleeps be sound,
A world of utopias come to round.

And in the nest, so glad we found,
All the eggs cracked but sound.
Spreading their wings, brought their wit
Eagled eyes, the aggression is sweet.

Now the wind is under their feet,
Diversified, our goals would fleet.

-hongyu 0845a

good night!

2009-09-09T01:50:00.002+08:00

To my dear fren who is now in confusion..

cheer up =)

i have no right to judge cos i donno the situation within their heart.

i donno wat they are up to..

but i know about you.

just follow ur heart and see if u wan him..

if you noe you need his presence, his company, his voice, his heart.

give yours out generously.

and don be afraid to lose anything..

cos love is a business that never makes a loss.......

2009-09-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

LOL.
1st post after so long..
update..

1st, i m super stressed over sku work.
cos my teachers are picking on me..

2nd, i realised i grew alot wif my encounter wif my piggy.
i learnt alot.
and i will learn to treasure and nv give up..
=)

3rd..
my prelims is around the corner..
i need find ppl study wif mi. lol.

and my bball deprove like siao..
gonna train bball back after As..
i have got so much plans..

-learn drving
-learn vocal
-learn magic
-learn piano
-find some fun part time work
-go taiwan and malaysia!!!! (or maybe japan or hong kong or vietnam =)
-save up for the that earring for her..

but now the biggest enermy is A level =(

go go fighting!!!

we can do it.
cos we are smart ppl...

2009-08-04T00:34:00.002+08:00

i always tot i m smart.
but in the end,
i m the foolest of all.
pathetic creature.
LOL...
really pathetic..
time to wake up ..

2009-07-18T23:17:00.002+08:00

wooo
i m happy..
ya!! i m very happy..
i must be happy..
yes i can be happy ... =)
i can be a good liar if i wan ..
lie to myself is a simple ting..
learnt so much literature.
so many ways to lie to myself.
and now i shall succeed =)
so i m happy!! ya i am..
i m tearing from joy...
so happy..
so happy....
so empty.

2009-07-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

LOL.. wa.. its been so long icne i last updated ..
gotta bring my blog back to lfie soon =)
currently i m having an irritating, squeezed, half healed, scaring, disgusting pimple on my nose =.=
yes just like the description..
zzz..
tml is a long day..
god bless i survive it =.=

2009-06-16T22:13:00.002+08:00

hmm...
maybe i m another childish one.
i shall not make my promsie into empty talk...
it may not be easy..
but i think there is a strength that is keeping mi..
and i will seek it.

2009-06-16T20:08:00.002+08:00

oh no..
i just realised i have not been updating my blog..
so sorry my dear blog.
last week was ok. and this week is just ok.
life is always full of ups and downs.
yup.
last week was kind of fast..
gone fast i mean.
anyway met up wif yun jie and yi ting finally for k box
they are as noisy as always . lol.
and photoholic =.=
eh forgot wat else happened.
well. yesterday went to eat sushi.
wif 7 more ppl from church..
managed to psycho mok go. lol.
and he can own the whole table.
1 min finish all.
but i don quite like that place.
v little choice lo. walao.
and i eat 10 mochi they say out of stock.
wth lo.

ya.
then today, lol.
joke day.
supposed to be the day i have been waiting for like so bloody long.
it was a day of hope for mi..
a slight hope for a little possibility.
and like i expected.
it was ruined.
lol.
i noe, sometimes ppl can be really cruel.
who can understand mi, truely.
maybe i m nt even allowed to have a little time of peace.
and gotten such cruel ending.
do i deserve it.
i donno.
should i continue to believe wat i believed.
wait a few years?
and things changes...
ur heart would change too.
patheticaly,
i don see any light any more.
today is crushed
and together wif my hope.
well, i cant believe ,
some ppl can be shocked when i decide something.
but really,
how do i face my crushed dream.
how strong i am.
i am a human too.
so i need time.
ya..
try it if any1 thinks its easy...

who can understand mi. really..
who and wat should i believe in... really...

2009-06-06T02:11:00.004+08:00

woot..
these few days was really hmm..
like roller coaster..
but..hm..
maybe cos of 1 person ..
that is curently the very important person to mi =P
well its back to normal.. =)
anyway,
wed k boxing wif long zhen and angeline..
wa they still like dam high..
nono, angeline was not so high last time.
is it go nursing course will become high ah =.=
LOL.
i wan sing sad song emotion also cannot lo..
ji dan..
then the card game came again.. LOL
if win we get 1 jar of coke!!
if lose must take photo and buy for $2 each la.
LOL..
i won again =P
that t iem go wif ah bear also i win de lo.
though i don like gamble,
but this kind donno why so lucky sia..
well we did take photo in the end =.=
give them face.
hm..

Thurs stayed at home whole day.
night time got called by huan sheng to bball at 438..
cos wei kang ah boon ah hui they all going back our home court.
saw ah siao there and he asked if i interested too join their team now, co he got new sponsers..
hmmmm..
i still like bball la.
but i got A level =(
and i got so many injuries..
if i can cure them, i shall come after my exams =P
then work hard for it.
lols.
but i worsened my ankle injury..haiz..
its not reovering at all la.
wa biang.
and my wrist de.. =.=
sian..
well, ka pok improved alot .lol.
even huan sheng scard of him..
nan2 de2 leh.
lol.

today lol..
wa..
dam sianed de.
donno why, always supposed to meet sally got another thing pop up.
for lik almost one year of half a yr le ...lols..
then today teh' s last meeting before he go army .....
lol..
had a hard time deciding where to go =.=
and i got tummy super pissed. =X
but i m forgiven after i met her =P
i noe she woundnt be so xiao qi la.. haha.
and boonlay really got dam lots of things =.=
we walked like 15 min to find that stupid subway..
while listening to her stories.
lols.
and she ran into 2 guys who liked her before =X
LOL..
so funny.
like everytime she talk about a guy, that guy go like her before..lol.
maybe they like her tummy..
next time if no money can use it as pillow.. lol..
just kidding.
after that when i reached amk,
just in time join mok they all 1 round.
hm.
cos like everytime i pang sei them,
so went to eat wif them since its so near my house.
and i got my piggy waiting for mi for so dam long..
omg..
i m so guilty...
cos i wanted to go back home earlily to chat wif her.
hmm
after being so tired, she still waited till almost 11..
i m so touched =)

=((((((((((((((((((((
guilty guilty guilty.

here are some past photos..

u should look into the mirror at ur tummy =P

not i edited de!!

not i edited de!! lols.

the guy on the right look dam like mars salamat!! LOL

hmm..

though i kinda noe its imposible..

but just like my style, i shall cont being the guardian angel =P

donno when i can take a photo wif my piggy. =P

2009-06-03T12:09:00.002+08:00

woot.
finally my long awaited sku holiday!!!!!!
=)
but i m so worried
so i totally have no mood to study..
and i havent.. LOL
but these fe days a bit to happening..lol.
eh . oh, and sat my cell activity was water war.
wa. it was really a war..
LOL..
i kana like 3 buckets of water.
an ah bear kana like 7?
mok kana about 3 to 4
ling li kana about 5..LOL
our game master cheng huan also kana till he fall sick la.LOL
soo funny.

monday accompanied mok to zoo =.=
he v the da pai s ia,
do project got mi, shuwen, shu ling, and weijie go together wif him LOL.
wa 2nd time go zoo this yr..
andi realsied zoo really got nth 1 la..
so boring.
haha.
then at night went to eat steamboat.
same old place.
the people thee tried to delay our food serving time.
then the slower they serve the more we eat.LOL
until they give up, send 3 waiter serve our table =.=
so diao..
LOL.
then at night si mok keep dragging la.
i was having headache and my mum was bombing mi...
lol.
so i went home myself.

ok, tues,
met weu yuan and chen hui..
lol ch' s hair looks nice,but wif his spec looks so weird =P
erm.
we went to watch night at museum 2.
LOL..
its so funny la..
and it end up to be a romance comedy somehow..LOL
awww..
after that met my piggy for steamboat at amk..
wa.
continuous 2 days steamboat leh.. LOL
and now i m quite sure, bugis steamboat taste so much better than amk de..
but well, whether the food is nice also depends on who u go wif ma =P

later i should be meeting long zhen and angeline for k box..
woot,
like 3 yrs nv see angeline and 1 yr nv see long zhen le.
wat have they beome ...hmm..

at night i needa study le..sian..
gogo fighting

2009-05-29T22:59:00.002+08:00

lol..
i m lazy..
so long nv update.
hm.
coach is back from china. cool.
tml will be his training lols..
gonna get our jerseys! ^^
wed was wei chang bday ..
happy bday darling =P
eyer. that sounds so gay.
nvm, once in a blue moon i shall be gay a bit.
oh man i really hope i m a gal.
my piggy gonna be so busy next week.
dam poor thing...
and, today wahcted terminator salvation.
as exciting as always =P
and chen hui sould be coming on sunday.
whee.
lets goooooooooooo play.....!!!
cos, its my bloody long awaited holiday!!! ^^
i m definitely dye my hair till nice nice.
and wat else
finally i got a new god sis.
my previous ones all go so diff sku.. haiz.
treasure eveyr1 around u!!
and i m gonna study harder.
jia you to myself =)

2009-05-22T03:32:00.002+08:00

wa..
sooo freaking tired this week..
lol..
as tired as last week..
suddenly had to do this racial harmony project which we thought we don have to do anymore. omg la.
lol. then suddenly had to stay back =X
but friday was a plesant day =)
hehe..
1st time leh.
a plesant surprise for mi..
got to stare at my piggy for a few hours =P
the barriers are going off.. cool.
and sat..
filming day.. lols.
i was bloody 1 hr late..
went to vanessa' s house and got harased by her dog' s barking noise.
it just could not stop barking.
and i was told cos it can smell mi =.=
from inside a room..
dog nose =.=
the filming was dam lame la..
lol..
and the video is gonna be sent for competition..
well.. lets see wat happens.. lols.
afternoon din make it for my cell activities.
was dam tired also
then at night had to go for bball training ...
woot.
due to the v little that came, we decided to go to public courts to play against other ppl.
then those too young de can watch and learn =)
but they got to play also la.
lols..
wei jie shu we nand shu ling went to join us in the street bball game.
though the gals only watching, i was still surprise they would be interested in bball .
and sunday..
as usual, had my sunday class and church service.
and kenneth came to join mi..
lols.. hes gonna bring his mum here next week sia..
wow.
din noe my church got so attractive.
hahaha.
after that went to study wif ah bear..
one interesting thing i noticed.
eerytime go out wif her, sure will see some1 i noe =.=
not when i go wif other ppl.
only her.
LOL..
maybe i should wear a mask when i meet her next time.
oh man..
cos of studying i had to sacrifice my chance of eating steamboat..
that was so dam sad..
but i slacked the whole of sat and sun..
haiz..
self control ah hongyu..

this week is just too sweet to descrbe.
so i shall leave it in this shadowish form =P
i m gonna sleep now.
tml will be another good day ^^
i m not gonna worry about what will happen,
what i should do ..
let god guide my way through wif his plans. =)

2009-05-13T15:46:00.003+08:00

lazy lazy lazy..
i m always lazy =.=
its been a few days..
yawn..
wat happened neh..
sat was a k box day for mi..
went to arcade while waiting..
and i fell in love wif para para dance machine LOL
its soo easy to play lo.
i can play the heardest 1 after playing once =.=

sunday church day.
went to mok' s grandmother' s funeral.
jie ai shun bian ba.
i m sure she will be blessed by god having so many children that loves our lord so much =)
the short truth or dare game was brilliant to play wif shu wen, wei chang, zhou zhan and wei jie. LOLLOL.

monday was a holiday..
for some rason i was dam sleepy =.=
slept and slacked.
napped in the afternoon and went to play bball wif wei chang, wei jie and yan chen.
we waited like 3 hrs then got ppl come la =.=
wa biang.
and injured my right ankle.
lol
now my 4 limbs only left my right wrist untouched.
when will i break that 1? =.=

yesterday went to study wif mok shun wen and wei chang at woodland library.
kinda productive cos if i dint go, i would not touch my book at all.
though i slept for like 1 hr there =P
but altogetehr i studied for 2 hrs!!!
amazing enough!
and i realised woodlands lib i s quite a condusive place to study.
gonna psycho shu wen they all go again =P
oh
and i was deadly tricked by ah bear =.=
and i kind of lost my confidence in my IQ
was a superb psychology play by her.. wa biang.
i have to revenge...
argh.

will the promsies ever come true? ..
or are they as empty as my hope now.. hmm.

2009-05-06T20:28:00.004+08:00

woohooo.
though i m feeling down..
i feel a sense of release..
ya.
this time may be a real holiday for mi..
though i wanted to continue the testiment..
ok.. but i still believe on my faith- treasure.
to my frens too.
just treasure every1 around u =)
don wait till they are gone.
hm..
ya..
yesterday was kinda dumb and suay.
whil waiting for bus back home at buki panjang,
1st missed a bus back to woodlands.
so i decided to take the bus that goes to yi shun, cos the buses to woodlands are quite cramped.
and then 3 buses that goes to woodland passed..
30 min later, then the stupid 171 come.
i was hungry till wan faint liao la =.=
and realised that stupid bus is so much moe cramped than the woodland bueses..
jiuming ah..
ya,
cos i was really moody..
called for rescue from bear.
and she ends sku at 7 at tampanis. =.=
and my bus was already on high way towards yi shun..
should have gone for woodland bus.. wa biang.
then nvm,
finalised to meet her at seng kang,
was told need to take 965.
then i alighted at north point busstop,
and went inside the interchange, but i could n ot find any 965
asked ppl then realised the bus stop for 965 is outside, same as the 1 i alighted from 171..
zzz..
nvm.
i walked out there,
and saw a bloody 965 closing its door..
i noe..
GG..
there i missed my bus again.. LOL
wat a day!
went to seng kang...
successfully psychoed ah bear to buy a hair band LOL..
i really think i should switch body wif her =.=
she is much suitable to be a boy than mi and i m much more vain than her.
sadly =(
its not possible.. lol
besides, i don like guys =P
hmm.
managed to find a usavich soft toy which looks dam alike.
i bet mok would get dam jealous when he sees it =P
too bad......
and i found a crystal cube that got the shape of music score and a rose inside the cute, like 3d like that..
wonder how they did it..
but its soo nice =P
and it has a 50 % discount..
hmmm
yup. i bought it =X
i really hate myself for my spending speed.. =.=
reached home at around 11 =.=
and my day was saved by my realistic checker =)
though i don wan to thank this kind of sarcastic ppl.
but i cannot deny the fact that i was saved by her =.=
so sad..

ok..
togday din go to sku..
but not intentionaly!
the rain was bloody heavy and i could not get my ass out of the bed.
hm.
ok la
also cosof the stupid stress from my work and a bit of gastric..
watever excuse it may be.
but i slept al the way till 1pm
scary...
and went to polyclinic after my lunch.
LOL.
every1 has to wear a mask..
the scenery as dam 壮观 ..
lol..
but whatever..
i got 2 weekso f medication for my gastric.
hope it would really help to prevent it, instead of dealing wif it when it comes.
and bought some cream for my wrist injury..

tml is a better day =)

my cute usavich =P finally i found u!! (p.s. that are not my hands!) lol.

this is our cute cheng huan..

white horse prince xiao lin ^^

qian4 da3 de ah bear

camera shy onion.

my cell mates in my grouping =P

shes gonna hit some1 !

you conquered my training. =)

wat a nice scene =P

suspect it? report it!!

2009-05-04T21:03:00.002+08:00

monday blues.
well.
morning it was actually quite enjoyable.
but like always, as the sku days starts,
the pattern starts.
fear of gossip.
fear of being seen.
lol..
that is wat the world is about.
every1 is living in fea of something.
that is really tiring.
i m not emotionless.
thats wat i must say.
donno why i lost my temper,
lost my emotions.
maybe they are melted at times.
but can this be forever.
provided there is a forever for mi to test.

studies.
i need more motivation to carry on my plan.
i m feeling so tired.
i wonder why.
i really have to find study partners.
i m too much tied up.
no choice, i have to look for any1.

sometimes i take promises too seriously.
and spike myself wif such throny horns.

2009-05-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

wa sei..
i am exhausted for these 2 days.. LOL
took over the position as cough for the church bball team.
and i came up wif a set of harsh trainings.
but i think some of them can barely or cannot make it already.. LOL
its sad to see that their perserverance is so tiny.

and i don like the fact that they keep forcing mi into joining church choir.
i already cannot cope with my studies.
by right, i cant even go for bball.
and i m going there to help since no1 else could take the job.
and they are thinking of canceling bball for mi to go choir..
well, that really does not make an difference..
and i don really like choir, i m more interested in singing pop songs
and they are so different.

hm..
i have just finished writting a super effortful lit essay.
which requried hours of research.
compared to my past efforts, this is another miracle for mi =)
i m waiting for my distinction reuslt for that piece of work.

now i m taking a break and gonna start on my econs hw.... yawn

i miss my pig =P

2009-05-01T10:32:00.003+08:00

diao..
stupid gastric and headache make mi fall asleep at 10 ..
so wasted..
argh.

but previous 2 days have been chionging sia.. lol..
but dam tiring.
even break time also go stud.
cos if i dont i will wan to sleep.
and even if i sleep next lesson will still feel sleepy.
might as well just study.

after sku asked miss lin for consultation for a little while.
cos the techniques taught by miss nathan is contradicting wif mdm chitra' s..
and she is so inspiring lol.
totally different set of views from mdm chitra' s...
soemhtign i nv even tot of =.=
dot dot dot...
ok i owe her a big favour...

kana pang seied by wen yuan ...ji dan..
then chionged to cwp met bear..
she was waiting for 30min lols.
omg la.....
so sorry.......
i cant possibily stop my ocnsultaiton teacher half way ma =X
argh......
then went to burger king and try their new burger,
and lastly, movie ! - "TAKEN" =P
And saw some 2 surprisingly at interchange .. lols.

hmm..
another 1 and half yr.
lol.
i m losing my confidence.
nono.
i have been losing since long time ago..
do i have any left?
maybe i shall wait till everything is ashed to dust...
and then i shall be gone. =P
and literaly i am.
in a few months ..

淡一时，心平浪静。
弃一步，海阔天空。

2009-04-28T22:46:00.003+08:00

wat a day.
morning go sku early early for broadcast.
then the system break down!!
and we could not do our final broadcast of our life..
that is totally dam devastating man.

anyway i accomplished somehting i nv though i had the patience to do. =)
and it is totally beauiful..

i m a human being.
how can i ever be superman.
hahaha.
i m such a loser.

i need some time...........

2009-04-28T00:18:00.002+08:00

lol..
cool la.
the herb wine is making mi spin!
i darnk double dose but i m not fainting yet.. ahh..
tml my last broacast ..
donno should hapy or sad..

good luck j1s =P

oh lol..i left this web open till morning..

going for broadcast now... =.=

2009-04-26T22:02:00.003+08:00

jiu ming..
my ankle injured, finger injured and wrist injury is not reovering since so long ago.
4 essays to do, 1 ns registration to do.
but i totally have no m ood to waste time on them.
A level is so near already.
tell mi wat to do..
some tell mi pls...

2009-04-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

gong xi fa cai.
another good day.
ya.
din go to sku =.=
my gastric was a small problem...
hm..
i think i m too pampered..
a little moody and i cant get my ass out of my bed.. =X
well, i did make use of this unexpected holiday, by sleepign the whole day..
yup..
whole day =)
with a little dessert in the evening,
to watch a suepr nice show- 17 again.
its a great show=)
its been long since i watched such a great comedy and touching show.
well.
the moral of the story,
maybe its right.
i m on the right track.
just appreciate my life?
i can do it hong yu!!!!!!!!

2009-04-22T21:36:00.003+08:00

wow.
pure irony.
same phrases heard 2 years ago,
happening after 2 yrs.
maybe its time to bow to fate.

maybe they 2 are the same.

same the same while process and i noe the end product,
i shall end the experiment earlier and save the fire gas and maybe some chemicals.

2009-04-20T23:41:00.003+08:00

jiu ming ah.
2 days gastric liao leh... =.=
1 whole day today.. lols.
i have been drinking too much coke .. and omg
its dam painful.
persitant one =.=

today broke my record.
slept 4 hrs in sku!!
sleep very soundly .. hehe.
and evening i was so awake and went tp phy lecture while waiting for wen yuan.
and that stupid teacher for the 1st time of the year, take atendance..
and count the no. of ticks and heads.
its only when he count wrong then all got to leave..
omg la.
dam funny.
cos he was expecting more ticks than heads, thinking ppl may over up for their frens.
but in the end got more heads than ticks..LOL

well recently i alos realised
sometimes when u just take a step back,
good things may happen really soon.
just try not to stir up anything,
don leave any regrets right. =)
sometimes, soemthigns need not to bring up,
just let ur love win ur pride and emotions.

let ur kindness be shown and let regrets withdrawn. =)

now,

I have special thanx to:

Living reality check advisor- XHY
Only special fren- LJY
Very best company mate- DWY
Efficient full time Counsellor- YLL

Life is full of surprise,
Just like each unique sunrise,
Youthful and mesmerized.

Thank you Lord for giving mi whatever i have now.
i will treasure everything.
i will take good care of my pig =P

Amen..

2009-04-18T00:04:00.003+08:00

hm..
no matter how much experience i heard or seen or been through,
think i am still a human.
aww. though i wan to be an angel...

but its that power is really amazing.
it has been driving mi to move. =)
really zmazing.
to think i can have such patience.

but then i think i am still a human,
i still have plenty of emotion i need to overcome.
i place too much importance in it.
a little wave could nearly flip my boat.
i just hope, i can get more understanding and motivation =)
but i will be strong..
cos the root mindset i have, is brightness =)

2009-04-14T23:01:00.001+08:00

sadly,
i need to demand more sensitivity...

2009-04-14T22:49:00.003+08:00

yawn..
i m tired.
really.
yesterday got to rush the stupid broadcast script..
and today gotta wake up at 5 30!!!!!
and today leh,
just finished sewing for the SLO project..walao.
why must sew thing de..
dam stupid lo..zzz
its been so long since i touch a needle =.=
took mi full 3 hrs.............
and i have totally no time and mood for my econs essay..
tml gona wake up earlt too for slo meeting.
then PE trianing fitness..
afternoon napha!!!
walao..
jiu ming ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................

2009-04-11T19:49:00.004+08:00

2009-04-11T19:11:00.003+08:00

wow. to recall, this week i ate 3 buffets.
2 steamboats and 1 sushi buffet =.=
i m gonna be so fat.
now i have another way to destress- eat!!!! LOL
sports carnival was on wed and i totally regret going ciogn dring pe in the morning =X
my legs almost cramped and could not run well.
but my teammates are totally imba..
LOL
so i got this 4x 100 metre gold medal thnx to them ^^
but i m still happy.
at least i did my best right =P

yesterday that steamboat was a classic 1.
i din expect ling li ould move gong yi to come join us..lol
plus wen yuan and chen hui the combination was totally contrasting.
mok and wei cong and shu wen were there to fire up the atmosphere.
as usuall, we filmed some videos.. LOL
and we laughed till i really lamost got stomach muscle cramp.
all of us could not walk..=X
steamboat is just so fun ^^
gonna upload the videos later.

hm..
of cos.
wats more fun is the sweetness of love .. =P

2009-04-09T23:17:00.001+08:00

天灰灰，谁人能知我心？

心冷冷，在世又有何为？

2009-04-08T00:47:00.002+08:00

life is so excitng..

i only have to choices.
to be cruel to you or be cruel to myself.

2009-04-05T00:15:00.003+08:00

In the ilsland where i approach,

Leaving my land i cant connect,

Not quite the fun filled my mind.

In wilderness where cacophony of melody heard,

Not as loud as the wind i felt,

For the load they deliver is not the chill.

But the love i missed still.

And the love that missed mi so.

2009-04-04T23:23:00.008+08:00

woot..
my leg is swellon =(
not cos of pular ubin but cos of bball match at church!!! argh..
kana knee cap.. omg.
its swollen!!!!
hmm but anyway the game was fun, but UBIN IS MUCH MORE FUN!!!
LOL..
i wonder why ppl can sleep on bus 1..
i m too tall le.. cant find position to sleep..
v sad right..LOL
hmm...
we are all dam muddy at the end..
at 1st we splitted.
then out group kana cheated that there are alternative ways to reach the desinated place.
so we tried another route.
it was a super long route and its a dead end..
wth..
then half way when we going back it started raining..
argh... lols
we were super drenched la.
felt like giving those dry ones random hugs. LOL..
but of cos, we were nt that evil.
though i m v tired, it was really fun!!!!
next time who wan go wif mi?!! =P
and my flu kinda gotten better.
i have no diea why..lols

oh.. got some pictures form my phone here.
and a funny video report by mi =P
gotta get more photos from shu wen ^^

2009-04-01T20:12:00.003+08:00

i m emo.
and i guess i understand why i am always emo.
well, today heats was not bad.
think the events i take part in can get prize.
then went for exco meeting and i got a super servere gastric ache.
well.
could h ave gone home 1st.
but i stayed and gambled my luck while suffering in pain.
and i guess i cant overcome the disappointment yet.

hm..
wat are you to some1 who don talk to u face to face.
to even find it hard to look at you.
its ok to imagine .
its ok to rely on technology.
but even those who are nt even m frens,
whom i don even noe,
smile at mi sometimes.
and i smile back.
thats already a bond.
wat bond do we have.
for a month,
i havent seen a smile from you.

one question keeps surface to my mind.
"do u treat every1 this well"
maybe i should have said yes.
cos i am ..
to most of my frens.
but the real difference is the heart.
but no1 can feel my intense emotion.
and no 1 have even returned the physical concern.
1 simple reason.
i m doing too much.
they cant catch up.
and i m upset,
cos i don get them back.

especially for my excruciating feel.
no 1 has ever returned them slight.

2009-03-31T23:27:00.003+08:00

yoyo.
updateing...................
monday went sku at 7 15 for training of 4x 1 00 meter..
and i think i overran without warming up!!! omg.
i can still hardly walk now.
i wonder if i can run during heats tml =(
thats sooo sad ..
andi got back my cll paper which was like 4th in class LOL
such a tyco paper..
cos 60% of the things tested was the things i took mc and missed out..
LOL..
but i failed my gp.
aww..sadly.
wats comforting is that i think no1 passed in my class, except for osme close subpasses.

cut my hair yesterday..
introed to a saloon by shu wen.
my hair is not that bad after cutting cos the hair stylist followed wat i instructed.
and my instrustion was quite specific.. hehe.
then shu wen peied mi to look for mao2 dou4..
soybean i htink
and found that it is super hard to find it in singapore.
wth lo.
i m not gonna give up.
hm..

pei xia was quite upset for cll result cos she did not do as expectedly well i think.
cos she has always been having As for other subjects.
cll i s hard..
maybe a bit of luck..
but don give up =)
Long Ge will guide us through =P

and to some1 who din manage to get into exco.
i m gonna edit and post out the poem for u here.
well, hope it can encourage you.
and don be too upset ok ..

Let not the confidence be over thrown,
Let not the disappointments rule the crown.
An unsuccess may not be true,
If in your mind it still grew.
Let not sorrow overpower you,
For one sadness sinks hearts in two.
Let my love shadow you through,
Let warm hugs sooths your soul. =)

2009-03-29T21:14:00.003+08:00

yoyo.. i have been so lazy to update..
lols.
eheh.
wat happened this wek ah.
oh oh.
meeting of my secondary sku frens for dinner at cafe something =.=
i din even eat till full when i spent like $20 on that okok food.
cos bread is self service.
but its forever empty cos eveyrtime it is put on the table, sure got ppl clear them in less than 5 min =.=
i managed to get a basket full of it though =P
sat was farewell lunchwif zi yue.
he spend like n ear thousand treating 30+ ppl buffet, in a private room somemore..
imba.
and below got a pic of the present we shaed for him.
it was chosen by yen ling, giving the bear a name called yi peen..LOL
omg la.
she is making him suffer lo.
night time chen hui came to singapore, meet mi and wen yuan to play =P
but half way i gotta go church a while for a short cell activity.
and t was games =.=
i was bullied when we play poison liek siao lo.
like for 20 min, all only aim mi when there are still 5 ppl inside..
wth..
make mi dodge till fully exhausted...walao eh.
then winner got free drink and i don get to have 1..
zzzz....
then i left earlier and meet wen yuan and CH at k pool.
andi won all the games!!!!!!!! LOL
total trash !!! omg.
i cant believe it.
last time they keep bully mi in pool de.
i m just too smart =P
the only game i lost was cos i hit the white ball in togetehr wif the black 1.. LOL
that was a charity ^^

alright, we arcaded, movied till 1 plus.
and chen hui went my house to stay overnight ...
and that day i got the funniest joke ever.
i am a gay?!! WTF .
i really donno wat my mum is thinking to insult mi to this extend.
fuck off the crap la.
maybe she still don understand how insulting it is for mi .
wats wrong of going out wif guys?
wth..
wat kind of world is this.
then expect mi everyday go out wif gals?
and invite gals in and sleep in 1 room wif mi?
lame shit..
i think my mum is plain despo.
despo to see a daughter in law.
which is not gonna happen in 7-10 yrs. =.=

anyway.today i still had to go church service which i slept for 30 min of it.LOL
but i attended the choir which was a pretty big impossible thing.
studied wif leng lee till 6 30, thoughmost of the time talkign rubbish,
and went home to game!!!!!

where is my pig??
i wanna hug you =P

2009-03-26T22:57:00.005+08:00

i have no idea why i wrote such thing. =.=

Open up my heart? ( zhang hongyu, 1989 - ? =P)

open up my heart, could you?
tune in to my soul and speak it.

thou doth astonishing fantasy
thou dive into my dream
thou a piece of carmine music
peaceful and ease

but ameliorate an illusionist,
your voice could pierce.
a little slight change
another stone to launch.

i promise my loyalty.
i secure your liberty.
dost Art of Ariel charge
in my fancination it works?
a mirandous sweet sweet dream?
another passing fish?
or,
an classic of prankness?

it opened up my heart and i dreamt.
But far far away, you swimmed,
only the mirage of my dream, lingers.

2009-03-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

wheee.
1st paper- maths.
failed.. lols.
though i could do 60% of the paper, i only realsied after i reach home that there was a big careless mistake in probability.
ok that happens all the time.
anyway i din study for naths at all.
just hope i can pass and shut their mouth for the time being.

econs.. hm.
din wan to chiong de.lols.
but i m really lazy to go for too many STAR programmes.
anyway got some sleep in the afetrnoon. so i shal not sleep tonight.
anyway,
saw a person sleeping wif a super wide opened mouth in train today while going home wif wen yuan. LOL!!!!!!!
omg la. i really felt like throwing a candy into his mouth.. LOL
oh ya, below got some pictures taken whiel i see a huge huge rainbow..
and the sunset was beautiful.
i hope i can see sun rise some day..
not sun set cos i would be emoing over it.. =P

2009-03-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

woo.. i m back to blog.. lol.
i have to guiltily admit i din study much this week
wasnt feeling well and of cos, no mood.
i donno wat i am stressed for.. i am just very stressed.
and i don like to ask for help.
so just die lo.

anyway this week went to k box like 2 times.
and once wif zi yun and olivia.
her singing is just tooo pro..
and maybe inspiring...
hm..
2 yrs ago inspired mi wif zhen hi which i kept practiced till now..
just hearing her singing can feel so much emotion.
and even increasing heart beat..
wow.
too bad i cant attend her concert cos of pre u sem..
oh man............................................................
best of luck.
and recently i fell in love in singing a song like compsoed by a blind person,
the song is ni3 shi4 wo3 de1 yan3. ( you are my eyes)
finally i could reach the key =P
well the hard thing is to imagine i m blind.
but theres another way of blind =P
if the dj competition comes soon, i m gonna use that song as part of the competition item. =)

i donno if its the correct way.
i donno which kind it is,
i just feel loved...
for once.
and it warm not my heart.
but my soul.
have i made any1 feel that way?
i will try =P
=)

2009-03-19T19:27:00.002+08:00

its been long sicnei update =X
maybe cos i donno wat to talk about ba.
everyday is like the same.
but i m quite thankful that i attended the nma camp.
cos can get to noe some really fun ppl.
nma ppl are very fun sia.. lols.
much mroe fun then orientation for jae..
i m amazed to find a suepr super suepr cute junior. lol..
simple and naive ppl are just hard to find nowadays.
for once i can be as simple as i can be, and its like almost gotten younger by 5 yrs lols.
hm. next week is my exams and i have not prepared at all....
i m sooo dead.. good luck to mi =)

oh ya, recently discovered a area that can see a full sky of stars.. omg..
i was so high when i saw it. lols.
but it only last a moment though..
nevertheless, its my 1st time in years seeing stars in singapore.. ^^
hope its a good sign.
have been praying alot recently somehow.
maybe there are more and mroe things i cannot help myself wif.
well, i will just leave it to god.

signing off..
god bless

2009-03-14T22:50:00.001+08:00

2009-03-11T22:52:00.002+08:00

i noe its been long since i update =P
had 1 week of MC leh cos of high fever everyday..
now s till coughing lo.
then went for NMA camp when i just recovered from fever. lols.
but it was dam fun and i love my OG lots ..
i love you cheecakes =P

the photos on this camp is too much =.=
lazy to upload so many.
friday is my CLL and gp block test but i havent even finish reading my text...
totally no time la.
today went for cca and then helped bernadine' s cousin for some sex talk discussion.
got 8 of us got called back..
i tot it would be 30 min and it ended up 2 hrs.. lols.
i m just stressed and tired.
tml i m gonna watch a horror show.
heck the friday tests =)

jia yuan got his wife!!!

2009-02-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

thnx to mok, i got 2 big scratch on on top and belo my right eye.
which looks super bloody =.=
and i feel my body is weakening recently somehow.
zz..
mayeb i ate too much choc..
LOL..
i havent done any hw cos i really have no idea what i need to do. =.=
so i shall do them tml,
since i m staying back to study..

i shall stay firm
put all that down.
and work for my dreams now =)

firm firm firm firm firm....

2009-02-21T12:31:00.002+08:00

wootss.
i cant believe i would st alarm on sat just to study.
lols.
thursday, took early dismissal and yet,
i did manage to study 3 hrs plus and finished absorbing my REd econs lecture booklet!!!
finished that last 40 pages sia.
that was really efficient.
thnx to xiao ding dang who was my study buddy on that day.
friday, yesterday another 12 40 dismissal day =)
i was v glad cos i did not have to do PE.
but i realised i have a bit to catch up wif my CLL.
hmm. but they are dam boring.
haiz..
no choice.
i gotta chiong that 50 + pages of lecture notes.
planned study time later 5- 9pm
study buddy of the day- xiao ding dang again. lols.
but i gotta plan for next few weeks.
when her exams finish, gotta find new study buddies.
and gotta find some in sku, if not i would waste my weekdays.

what am i working hard for?
haha.
iwouldnt wan to waste my 2 yrs here
i wan to achieve my dreams =(
my Red painted big house.
a Red sound proof room.
Red painte grand piano.
Red karaokay system.
5 Red computers.
Red guitar
1 Red bed =P

i wan the ability to compose.
ability to sing well.
ability to help the rest.
abiltiy to light their dark.

I guess, i have to work hard...............

2009-02-19T15:56:00.002+08:00

oh well.
actuall i forgot wat happaned this week.
its been so fast paced.
so much so that the weekend seemed like yesterday but its already thurs. =.=
anyway,
had to mention last thurs was our farewell meeting with 4-6 for Elizabeth
she was the kindest and sweetst and tiniest gal i met in my secondary school.
and also a v passionate christian who invited us many times to her church to learn about christinity
honestly, if not for her, i would not have become so interested about christianity and eventually converted myself.
anyway, best of luck Eliz =)
i m sure u will be loved in the western side too ^^

friday was a seoul garden meal with wen yuan and chen hui.
LOL.
same hting, my meal was a few kg of beef =.=
and 10 scoops of icecream.. =P
and thnx to Ian, Athira and Huda for the valentines gift.
they are such sweet ppl. lols.
And i could not believe Athira got so excited over the flower and choc i gave her..lols.
a totally flower lover =P
But i feel cheated that stupid jia yuan sells Waron 8 roses for $2.5 each and sold mi 3 for $8 still dare to tell mi he gave mi a discount.. zzz

anyway, sat, which was valentines day,
had church meeting lols.
and followed by bball game at jathib wif mok, huansheng and wei chang.
it rare that huan sheng would follow us for bball.
and thats the end of my valentines this year,
totally so gay ..LOL

sunday, cos ofmy injury, coul not go bball wif mok =.=
so far somemore ( buki batok)
decided to go sing. yup
at least 1 out of the 3 i asked could go wif mi =P
so happy.
if not gonna go alone and train my vocal..
that would be emo.. lols.
and made a video while i sing 1 night in bei jing..LOL
the voice was totally awful, and constantly kana suaned by xiao ding dang =.=
lols.
but k box was never boring.
i simply love singing =P

monday to tuesday was plain boring simultanenous days.
wed was my cca elcome tea for j1s.
i m glad dong li and her fren joined ibcs chinese.
if not there wont be any chinese dj.LOL
don worry, i would help as much as i could =)

today is the best,
night time suddenly ache here ache there.
i already so dam stress of finishing my 3 essays.
after reaching home at almost 9.
and i could not sleep due to the pain =.=
morning still had to go sku early to do my gp hw since i left it in locker.
and the best thing is.
i completed all my hw at 7 10am,
when my sku starts at 7 50 =.=
means i m toooooooooooo early.. yawn..
anyway, i took early dismissal form home due to my back ache.
i shall go sudy a while, and start reading my Twlight =P
so far the most expensive novel series that costed mi $60+ =.=